“Who I Truly Am”

I’ve lived to uplift the unguided
chasing the voices all on my own
Now when I’m under-appreciated
Life’s free land has been shown

I loved him deeper
Than love he’s ever known
I was restless
When I first had flown

That old web
Can’t twist me in trepidation
For I’m finally free to be
Who I truly am

My heart couldn’t
make us harmonize
I mouthed your words
I breathed for whom I empathized
Like a crystal ball reveals all my hurt

I love you deeper
than love you’ve known
I was restless
when I first had flown

That old web
Can’t twist me in trepidation
For I’m finally free to be
Who I truly am

Love no longer
blinds me as long
Declaring freedom
I found in following
my true self
turning an unwavering flicker on
And those in disagreement
can’t be helped

That old web
does not twist me
in trepidation
I’m finally free to be
Who I truly am.

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“Peace of Mind”

Crying together
Unifying all
We’ve weathered

Expressing my being
Catching words
As they’re purging

Aligned
With altering skies
Thrusting myself
Into all sad eyes

Rationalizing
My abyss of emotions
Believing angels
Hover over the oceans

I felt peace of mind
Was holding love
I had faith
Love remained kind

I’ve never been aligned
With God
Just questioned
Why I’m questioned
Why I was visualized
As so odd

I don’t believe
I’ll ever possess
Peace of mind

I can feel
Roots of my distress
It’s this world
so blind

Our eyes meander
Our souls stammer
There’s never full
Comprehension
Nor complete
Balanced motion

I thought if I died
You thought
If you’d confide

My demons would be left
To fiend
Your sins
Would be redeemed

But just when we can
Breathe
We search for more
Willing to commit
Adultery

Such conflicts
Take us on a new plane
We evolve momentarily
But we’re eternally insane

Joy is dead
In my vocabulary
I let peace leave
My weak mind

Universal alignment
Leaves my sensory
I’m forever blind

Kids get college degrees
They can afford luxuries
Lights of self medication
Opportunistic husbands

So the ones that truly love
Are better off up above
Till they’re aligned
With their grief
For peace lies in
Letting go of leaves

I’ll never innately
Feel peace in mind
I’ll always emotionally
Look at my world
As so blind.

Committed 

“Committed”
Walked through

A new doorway

Arched and haunted

I left behind a cocoon

Of our glory days

I’m understood by the sick

Understanding is all

I wanted
Trees aligned

Outside my new window

Before estates below

Not as big as yours

At midnight,

Streetlights and moonlight

Interglow
I’d like to believe 

I finally left you behind

But you’re part of the tale

Always haunting my mind

I couldn’t sleep

my first night

So I wished

On a star so bright

That I’ll grow to erase

What can’t be left behind
I’m the third

In the grandest quarter

As always I’m unsettled here

Old familiar faces smiled

A little warmer

But I stand alone

Still the only queer
You tried to change

The world outside

My old window

And bestow upon me

An estate of my own

But heartbreak

brought death

To reality

And nothing could be so
I’d like to believe

I finally left you behind

But you’ll always be

Part of the tale 

Always haunting my mind

I didn’t sleep my first night

So I wished upon a star

So bright

That I’ll grow to forget 

All that can’t be left behind
You wouldn’t embrace me

So I fled your society 

You prayed he felt you’re

Committed

So I committed myself
You think I’m crazy

I tried so hard to play sanity 

Despite the sins you admitted

I would have willed myself
To wait in that old doorway

Where I leave “us” to stay

The cocoon only held you

And I understand

I was diagnosed eternally

As a sick and stunted youth
I might one day believe

I just left you behind

For now you’re in the tale

Always haunting my mind

Under slept on my first night

I prayed to a star so bright

That I forget you

And you’re left behind.

Astray

Do you believe
You can achieve
Fervor for vitality?
Your alternate reality?

When man speaks to you
Do you see more
Than a thrust?

If man breaks you
Can you preserve yourself
And keep trust?

She prays to cease
I once prayed to cease
I had to break away
As much as it’s real
We can easily
Go astray

I’ve had a plan
Yet I could revive you
With my stand
Lovers drain bolts
You secured my jolts

Then you silenced me
My voice was lost
Somewhere in your heart
Your lover broke thee
But you were freed by
By yours and my art

You were nearly deceased
I was praying to cease
We had to break away
I’ll know what’s real
Without me,
You’re somehow astray

I’ll photo pearly gates
When bits of me die with you
It can be unspoken, all you take
As the world makes death
So true

Angels like the one you herald
Could never love you
Like I do

I never slept in your castle
But you cradled me
As your reborn truth

I shall cease
We’ve all ceased
You broke away with me
Very little rationalizes
As reality
As your fervor hits me.

You Are Our Own

“You Are Our Own”
Dedicated to Little Daniel

He is less than well
What he needs
You easily can tell

I remember well
When I was in need
You held me
With fairytales I’d reap

Lay with him
Heal him as his blessing
When he wears thin
Horizons are your broadening

Far from me
I suffer alone
But he is salvaged by thee
I know you are our own

Your words release
Our hearts peaceful birds
You need no guide to read
You’re in tune with peace
You’re what we need

Lay with him
Heal him as his blessing
When he wears thin
Horizons are your broadening

Far from me
I suffer alone
But he is salvaged by thee
You are our own

On a stormy day
Your arms wrapped around me
I felt kissed by my rain
You sang of life so free
You ran back to your boy
I ache for his discomfort
But your blanket is joy
You paint smiles
Over suffering’s worth

Lay with him
Heal him as his blessing
When he’s wearing thin
His horizon is your broadening

Too far from me
Suffering without you alone
But he is salvaged
Like I could be
You are our own.

   
 
  

Before You’ll Never Land

For Eric

It’s not easy
To say I’m crazy
I think my craze
Is why you can’t love me

It’s not easy
To feel we are free
Being bound to you
Had it’s beauties

I learned you
But knew you
I learned
Where I stand
But I love you

Dreams came true
My soul mate took my hand
But I had to save myself
Before you’ll never land

You’d never say I’m insane
But I saw you
Grow sick caught in my rain
Can you hear
Say you’re clouds and sun?

We’re unloved boys thrilled
As rainbows had begun

I saw you
I see you
I can’t understand
When I love you

A maze we strolled through
And woke in
Each other’s hands
But it’s time for through roads
Before you’ll never land

I apologize
Scientists have not made meds
So I can realize
The rage is in my head

Forgive me
I allowed emotion to rule me
You just tried to give me
A soul that won’t fool me

You’re flawed too
Professing love untrue
I’ll never understand
When I love you

But you love me
When you’re trimmed
From your ancient roots
You don’t plant seeds for me
When you bury our truth

It’s hurts so much
To see I scared you
I bring back tones
You can’t break through

It delights me
To know you’re so soft
But your charms
Are daily thoughts
With a cost.

 

You Caged Me

“You Caged Me”
I’m dying
For one oblivious of
What is true
I’m just laying
As I’m made less than love
Everything now feels untrue

Rage is a cage
I scream
With an ignored voice
The enlightenment I say
Still slays me
with no worth
To be a choice

I’ve been forgiving
For there’s no life
Without him
There was always room
For him to lay

But forgetting
Summer blossoms
Are mindlessly trimmed
I’m surrounded by petals
Now decayed

I was born
Too free for a cage
I’m too loving
To scream acid

And I’m more
Than all I gave

You only presume
you’ve learned
How to freely live

You’ve drawn my routes
As to how to embrace you
But I saw too much
In my youth
And I can embrace
Our suppressed truth

If you can’t face
Our truth?
And you still want my love
Inside a cage?

See, I saw love soar
Without inhibition
In my youth

And I can’t stay
Long enough
To show you
Out of your cage

I’m on the outskirts
To be free
Of dreams you’re trapped in

I can also set free
And forgive love
You caged me within.

   
 

Ritualistic

You got me started
Just to end my beliefs
Love immersed and started
But you clung to beliefs
You were a constant end
I found myself in pieces
I did not care to mend
You mistook love had traces

You breaking me
Learning from
You abusing me
You took from me
You listened to hear
What you could use
From me
But it’s your man
That should teach you heart
I’ll save mine and depart

You’d like me to see you
From angles you see yourself
Some smiles are untrue
My angle of me is truly felt
You feel light through you
I’d stay if I felt you felt me
Your sight I cringe at
Through and through
Is nothing to sights
That created me

You breaking me
Learning from
You abusing me
You took from me…

I’ll never hate your heart
It’s simplicity is like art
You exist in your bright hues
Almost erasing my truths

I don’t care for
A perfect picture
I’ve suffered
Your utopian lectures
Brokenness is stronger
I won’t be a vision
Any longer

I began beside you
I longed to hide in you
You returned
To righteousness
I wanted to die
To feel blessed

But you began a death wish
Said your touch was a myth
You don’t know passion
For a man
Passion I felt is too puzzled
To understand
So I bury our vision
And leave you
To a robotic simpleton.

   

Runaways (poetry & photo journal)

RUNAWAYS

By. Daniel Garcia

I run away

From the mad

From being maddened

The clearheaded are oblivious

To the drive

Insanity gives desperate minds

To land 

On a therapeutic shore

People whom transcend asylums

Seem carefree.

They’re like storybook achievers 

Of security

And serenity,

Successors of a non-traumatic life,

And the formulation 

Of thoughts free of clutter, confusion,

And endless hunger.

They seem ideal, 

And yet so unreal.

I abandon my culture,

And my mother showed me

How to abandon

Loved ones 

Out of fear,

But I can’t seem to undo

My attachment to my thoughts

And my chaotic bind

To my emotional imbalance.

When I can’t run,

I offer an embrace,

And I breathe

Ever so slowly

Through the discomfort

Of the reality

I know I can learn to love

With a focus

On the inspired

And celebratory

An imprisoning mind

Typically hides,

Like a treasure.

Barely escaping

My turbulent youth

I find that I’m less

Running towards an end,

An erasing of all

Heartbreak

And tormenting words,

Like chasing after the following,

Less ominous morning.

Souls and hearts

Run far away

From one another

As to avoid

Intensity

And involved triggers.

When love was present,

It was just another escape

For him to run away 

From the dogs

That did not sleep all night 

But rather drove him crazy

With hostility

And suicideology.

Love was running away 

From his ancient demons.

Ultimately, we’re all runaways,

Catapulting out of ourselves,

Our locked cages.

We aspire to relocate,

Like a new feeling,

Such as numbness.