“My Prince”

You don’t have to be
Heroic again
I gave away new love
Because you’re beyond comparison

I was left
To lick my own wounds
Remembering you never let
the floods of my tears drown me
when they loomed

You returned home to another
You said I could have been
your chosen lover

The way you lifted
my drooping heart up
Is the way I learned
I’m deserving of being loved

On a rollercoaster of emotions
I wanted to outshine your
longtime commitments
But I reminisce of you as my prince
Nobody has handled me
As kindly as you did

I wish the destiny you returned to
Treats you well
I will never settle for less
Than your love that broke
My bad spells

You weren’t such a fantasy
To disappoint
When you made freedoms possible
That annoint

I was enraged
But I associate you
with consolation
You’re still vivid
With new love
And broad migration

I never asked you
To abandon your lover
Your home is as vital
As was my heart
you used to cover

The way you’d never let me
cry alone
Is the way I learned
not the whole world
is made of stone

On a rollercoaster of emotions
I wanted to outshine your
longtime commitments
But I reminisce of you as my prince
Nobody has handled me
As kindly as you did

I wish the destiny you returned to
Treats you well
I will never settle for less
Than your love that broke
My bad spells

I don’t have to be
in your way
For you to remain
my vision of love
I’m at peace
with your wishes today
My skies know I’ll never be
Part of what your visions
Are made of

But how you loved me
So sensitive to my feelings
When you spoke lovingly
It’s a love
I’ll be aspiring

On a rollercoaster of emotions
I wanted to outshine your
longtime commitments
But I reminisce of you as my prince
Nobody has handled me
As kindly as you did

I wish the destiny you returned to
Treats you well
I will never settle for less
Than your love that broke
My bad spells.

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“Through A Manboys Eyes”

Words stemmed
from your corruption
Angels brought you to me
Unknowing
of your scars deception

My guardian angel
left a manboy
The queen of my heart
preserved innocence
Your jadedness
will not compromise my joy

You intake life
With fury undisguised
With bruises unforgiven
Attacking the love I’d given

A Chaplain speaks of light
Wherein youthful spirits
stay alive
I always had strength
to be risen
From where grace
has long fallen

I’d never grow
Into a broken child
Angry at a destructed world
My dreams behind the sun
Are too wild

I see a wondrous world
Through a manboy’s eyes
As I nurture pain
After watching
the queen of my heart
My joy will never be
compromised

You intake life
With fury undisguised
With bruises unforgiven
Attacking the love I’d give

A Chaplain speaks of light
Wherein youthful spirits
stay alive
I always had strength
to be risen
From where grace
has long fallen

Little boys come first
When they’ve been
bruised often enough
We all have a heart’s thirst
But there’s no bruising
in true love

So I carried myself
to hope
Resiliently
kept on fluttering
Not too little
to know how to cope
Before a boy begins
shattering

You intake life
With fury undisguised
With bruises unforgiven
Attacking the love I’d give

A Chaplain speaks of light
Wherein youthful spirits
stay alive
I always had strength
to be risen
From where grace
has long fallen.

“Beyond The Fairytale”

Love sprouts petals
Love encourages wings
The face of love
proved fictional

I always must be
geographically
off the radar
from where he
may be breathing

When love is immortalized
Years past make it
Too much of a trigger
To personalize

Sometimes
a unique circumstance
at hand
Leads fate
to prevent me
From falling
into destiny’s hands

We met in a storybook
We’re putting
acidic, adult lines behind
Strength of our wild imagination
We certainly took

I know the man
beyond the fairytale
Is somehow sublime

Love often grows
adulterated
Love has always
lost purity
The honeymoon sours
By all that was carpeted

I can’t be
expected to deny
My honesty
about faded sparks
As you conjure
your own reality

The death I realize
Resembles
bittersweetness of my life
And how you’d rather not feel
Is like the reoccurring shutdown
fate long ago
dealt me and sealed

We met in a storybook
We’re putting
acidic, adult lines behind
Strength of our wild imagination
we certainly took

I know the man
beyond the fairytale
is somehow sublime

You spoke
the right words
Evoked to be
emotionally endless
But spoke
like only seasonal birds
With limits to the feelings
you’re able to digest

Again a visionary embraces
a voice merely in character
In the end I wish self discovery
turns your pages
as I accept
another broken dream
I knew I felt
as it began to falter.

“His Mission”

Reconnected solidly
But dark light persists
around me
At times I fail to learn
Till I’m invested

Love in His image
becomes combat
Where I become enlisted

Creatures of vast cities
Cry for peace treaties
Many have aimed fire
Undermining my desires

God needs me
To love regardlessly
Of my heart silenced
Open hearts
are His mission

I was rejected
By a man breaking me
I reignited him
And shed his salvation
tearfully

My fallen spirit taught me
Only I can see
I’m protected
A winged spirit
redeems love in combat
Where much of this world
is enlisted

Creatures of vast cities
Weep for peace treaties
Many have aimed fire
Undermining my desires

The Lord needs me
To love regardlessly
Of my heart silenced
Open hearts are
His mission

Someday someone
will take note
Of radiance I withhold
Bad seeds won’t be planted
I won’t see light in a way
Only to be disenchanted

God needs me
To love regardlessly
Of my heart silenced
Open hearts
are His mission.

“Painted Me As Hateful”

I was inspirational
Then reflections
became too hard
And you thought me
hateful

Pursuit of me
held enough worth
But I revealed
some darkness
Truth was too much hurt

You once smiled
As you lurked
Watching me
Was motivational
I highlighted things
With too much hurt
Your mind painted me
As hateful

My time
has been shortened
To be always put
in a poor light
I still have life
before crucifixion

I have faith deeply
I don’t have to drown
in anger
I can still
be touched gently

You used to smile
As you lurked
Watching me
Was motivational
But things I highlighted
Began to hurt
Your mind painted me
As hateful

Your failure to differ
Between your perception
And truth
Became my detour
As I refused to be
Defined by you

You can think
I entail hatred
I feel you sense a world
That harbors hate

There’s peace I pray
Your heart eventually fences
And whatever
you perceive of me
Forgiveness soars you
beyond Heavens gates

You smiled
as you lurked
I was motivational
Till I highlighted with
Too much hurt
Your mind painted me
As hateful.

“Embracing Disregard”

My heart beats
For God alone
Who sways me
can’t be reached
I’m always bent by stone

I feel it all
In a burden
Waiting to be sensed
A neglected boy
Awaiting Heaven
I’d be uplifted
if someone listened

Love will soon come
With a sixth sense
To hear me out in the ocean
Knowing how life and I
Made amends

Now there’s no ear lent
To my emotions
They unnoticeably swarm
Comfort I singularly have woven
Embracing disregard
And stay warm

Daily grind cheats
Children unhealed
But spirit made
my heart too sweet
Made it too much to feel

I feel it all in a burden
Waiting to be sensed
A neglected boy
awaiting Heaven
Awaiting one to listen

Love will soon come
With a sixth sense
To hear me out in the ocean
Knowing how life and I
Made amends

Now there’s no ear lent
To my emotions
They unnoticeably swarm
Comfort I singularly have woven
Embracing disregard
And stay warm

I’ve poured my heart
Doing my part
I should have known
from the start
My heartstrings are too sharp
So I give rhymes
to the black skies
The night won’t reject
My emotional cries

Love will soon come
With a sixth sense
To hear me out in the ocean
Knowing how life and I
Made amends

Now there’s no ear lent
To my emotions
They unnoticeably swarm
Comfort I singularly have woven
Embracing disregard
And stay warm

“No Bridge Long Enough”

We crossed over a bridge
that almost never happened
Seems I always bleed cementing
Till the best of nature descends

Now I’m your monster
Without any wit
to keep you on my side

But I could have loved you longer
Many barriers
we would have crossed inside

Some seas never touch
No bridge long enough
Will save breathless love

Bridges are walked over
Slowly taken for granted
Then they crumble under
Without talking peace
for I handed

Relish in your laughter
As mocking
as gatherings in daylight

If we were born unto life
much softer
Hearts that bridge
would not sever into spite

Some seas never touch
No bridge long enough
will save breathless love

I struggle to understand
How I can splurge
time and heart
While never feeling held
by my hand

And still be easily made
Too unworthy
And too hard

Our seas will never touch
No bridge long enough
Will save our breathless love.

“Who I Truly Am”

I’ve lived to uplift the unguided
chasing the voices all on my own
Now when I’m under-appreciated
Life’s free land has been shown

I loved him deeper
Than love he’s ever known
I was restless
When I first had flown

That old web
Can’t twist me in trepidation
For I’m finally free to be
Who I truly am

My heart couldn’t
make us harmonize
I mouthed your words
I breathed for whom I empathized
Like a crystal ball reveals all my hurt

I love you deeper
than love you’ve known
I was restless
when I first had flown

That old web
Can’t twist me in trepidation
For I’m finally free to be
Who I truly am

Love no longer
blinds me as long
Declaring freedom
I found in following
my true self
turning an unwavering flicker on
And those in disagreement
can’t be helped

That old web
does not twist me
in trepidation
I’m finally free to be
Who I truly am.

“Without Being Kissed”

Coating years
of burns
Without a single touch
I yearned
So hopeful
I was delusional

Love came so simple
But fingers
never traced my pain
A zealous undoing
made me feel sane

I loved
without being kissed
I sank my heart
into gasoline bliss
I changed
without intimacy
My sheets unfulfilled
with empathy

We envisioned how close
we could become
till our pride
had our vision undone

I could be special
They could have been
feeling playful
Acting out of pure need
Performing a more
dysfunctional deed

I absorbed most hours alone
We faded into a dawn
dimming till disowned

I loved
without being kissed
I smiled
through gasoline bliss
I changed without intimacy
Sheets unfulfilled
with pure empathy

We envisioned how close
we’d become
Pride had our vision undone

Still an untouchable manboy
Love exhausted only much joy
I no longer fantasize as much
Premature broken-heartedness
keeps me from touch

A boy who still struggles
to understand
Why a man can’t keep love
in his hands

I sacrificed myself
in my love’s depth
But I feel so inexperienced
the more I tread.

“Endless Skies Can Always Be Dreamt Upon”

I’ve showered
many a soul
With unsheltered love
They could never feel
each degree
Some intensity
can’t be thought of

When I’d find myself drowning
I was molded
to keep my head raising
I was taught
waterfalls flow into seas
Security is based on
all that I believe

Some look to the sky
Some walk with heavy clouds
Sweetness always creates
sourness in my eyes
Endless skies
can always be
dreamt upon
without a doubt

Freedom becomes solitary
With an unsupported spirit
Only I have myself to shield me
And draw for lovers my limits

When I’m minimized
I never allow myself
to be victimized
I was taught
even reality can be overcome
I can create an existence
where brighter light is shun

I’ve looked to the skies
Walked with heavy clouds
Sweetness always creates
sourness in my eyes
Endless skies
can always be
dreamt upon
without a doubt

My soul mate would agree
a brighter perspective
is essential mentally

Feeling your heart as valued
and applied worth to
is as emancipating as truth

I’ve looked to the skies
Walked with heavy clouds
Sweetness always creates
sourness in my eyes
Endless skies
can always be
dreamt upon
without a doubt.