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When I begin breaking again

I keep my eyes on

The crazy ones with wings

I know when my spirit will end

Because I start to hear

An angel sing…

And when I have to catch myself

I let the waterfalls

Wash over me

And I let the depths flow through me

Until I learn how to let

A lover be…

Refrain:
When a world is being destroyed,

keep on smiling…

When your wings are harder to enjoy,

keep on flying…

Because the blue skies aren’t forever

Winds are blowing…

And life can become the punches that

God is throwing…

I was placed here to pass the time

I’ve learned how hollow

Every minute can sound

But amidst this universal crime

Believers are redeemed

And depth is found…

Believing in depth is believing strange

Like a sweet sense of peace

In a war zone

So what if I think I can fly?

My right mind was never

Written in stone…

Repeat Refrain

I don’t care anymore

I’m going to believe

That the completeness of my heart

And peace can be achieved…

Singing without caution

My heart has no filter

I’ll be the rain of my passion

My rules break and flutter

When a world is being destroyed,

keep on smiling…

When your wings are harder to enjoy,

keep on flying…

Because the blue skies aren’t forever

Winds are blowing…

And life can become the punches that

God is throwing…

So, keep on smiling

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I Am More

He thinks I should cry
But I don’t know how to feel
I feel my quest for love
Made my life easy to steal

He thinks I should fly
But wings need innocence
I wasted my whole youth
Because of my impatience

And we can share each other’s stories
Till we can narrate each other’s tears
But I don’t want heartbreaking struggles
To be the only stories we hear

Because I am more than my pain
And I am so much more
Than the things that make us insane
And I am more than what you see
And I am so much more
Than the death that will become me

I’ve looked at my pain
I’ve buried myself in roots
And now I’m ready
To live by tomorrow’s truth

I wished too hard for love
And a diseased nightmare came true
But I still have dreams
I don’t have time to die in blue

And when I’m on the prowl yet again
Like a romantic committing sin
I will gather numbers and equate
Love is nothing one night can create

And now I am more than my pain
And I am so much more
Than the things that made me insane
And I am more than what you see
And I am so much more
Than the death that will become me

We won’t be sinking
In our positive thinking
We will soar out of our zone
We’ll let our mission be known

Maybe we should cry
Maybe our souls need the tears
Maybe we will fly
And land somewhere past our fears?

Because we are more than our pain
And we are so much more
Than the things that make us insane
And we are more than what they see
And we are so much more
Than destiny thought we could be

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Intimate Savior

I’m afraid I have

My father’s cracked mind

I can’t escape him

Even when the stars are aligned

My independent mother can’t teach me

How to surrender the love

Suffocating me

And I’ve tried replacing

The man of my life

But every close second

Gets harder to survive

No man can be good enough

Yours is the love from above

But do I lose my loud mind?

Or lose my heart I’m scared of?

And who is the man of my life?

Is he the disconnected one?

Or the one above the hot sun?

You would hold me

As the soul of the Earth

Your heavenly flight left me

With a restless search

I’ve looked and looked

Til I was broken

My soul was homeless

And I took toxic tokens

But now I’m beginning

To realize

I’ve been trying to hold strange men up

In your dead eyes

No man can be good enough

In light of your heroic love

Do I save another man?

Or the boy you helped dream up?

And who is the man of my life?

Is he the church going one?

Or the one who is my religion?

There’s a strong, gentle man

My subconscious floats with him

It’s in his nature to be

Like an intimate savior

There’s a dangerous notion

My abandoned soul should float with him

But it’s nature to be

A rotting, suffering creature

No man can be good enough

To fill your forsaken space

Do I keep replacing you?

Or kiss the scars on his face?

And who is the man of my life?

The man in the sky’s paradise?

Or the flawed man still so alive?

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